Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Tuesday, July 30

I think Sunday was only the second time I have gone to the movies by myself.  The last time was shortly after I retired and I walked out of it.  terrible.  I went to see "The Heat" Sunday and it was really funny although a bit "raunchy".  I needed some laughs.  Bought a medium diet coke and a medium popcorn and it was almost $9.00 ! plus it was way more than I needed.  Nonetheless, it was a good enough experience that I will probably do it again.

I did some errands yesterday and feel like my desk is not quite so crowded with things to do.  Then I went to buy a few things for the trip.  I realized when I did laundry this past weekend that my underwear might not pass "muster" at my daughter's so bought some.  Found a cute jacket and some capris to take on the trip as well.  Some mornings will probably be a little cool.

Today was hard.  I got up and got ready and went to see Cowboy.  He was asleep when I got there.  The staff told me he had a very restless night.  I watched him sleep for about an hour and then woke him up and insisted he get up and out.  He didn't want to and wouldn't consider going outside although it was pretty nice this morning.    I decided to try to get him to walk around inside the unit and he agreed to that.

When he started out of his room he was very unsteady.  He kept moving his walker forward and then backward like it wasn't working right.  He did this over and over again all the way around (the long way) to his table.  Seemed like he thought it wasn't working right but it was working just fine.  It took a very long time from his room to the dining table.  He was very non-communicative at lunch, although he did eat fairly well.    After he ate his spaghetti and garlic bread he refused his vegetables and then ate his cake.  He kept dropping it in his lap and then trying to pick it up with his fork.    Hard to watch.

We went back to his room after lunch and I asked him if he knew who I was.  He said yes and when I asked him who he said "LaRaine".  She is his sister who he has not seen in several years.

I have been told many times that the changes don't occur gradually so much as all at once and that seems to be the case.  He was definitely not the same today and seemed very different.

I almost broke down coming home today.  Such a beautiful, smart engaging man  reduced to someone who I don't even know.   Not unexpected but hard just the same.

I have had three "drinks" this afternoon.   Really should try to get a handle on myself.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Sunday, July 28

On Thursday I took a banjo player that lives in our neighborhood and his wife with me and went to the home.  He had a good audience as well.  These guys really seem to benefit from music.  There was one fellow that was once a square dance caller and he was trying to call on some of the tunes.  There was another resident that tapped his foot the whole time and another that clapped enthusiastically after every song.  We are going to do this again !

Had to go for a follow up mammogram on Friday morning.  Was way late calling me.  Took the whole morning.  The Dr. came in after checking the film and said the spot in my breast is not any bigger than last time and doesn't think it is anything to worry about.  Have to go back in six months so they can keep an eye on it.

I went back to the home on Saturday.  Had lunch with Cowboy and we watched an old black and white movie.    He wouldn't let me have his dentures for me to check them.  Generally he was "somewhere else" today.

I stopped back by the mall to take a walk.  It is hard to find time when it is cool enough right now.  Topping 100 most days.  Got in about 20 minutes and then got distracted shopping.  Found some really comfy walking shorts and a pretty dressy blouse which will be good for my upcoming trip.

I got up this morning and took a ride on the bicycle.  I feel very unsure and unsteady but it was better today than last week.  Nice and cloudy and relatively cool.

Today I am doing laundry, changed the bed, enjoying the paper and starting to gather up some things so I can be sure I have what I need for the trip.  I have more clothes than anybody ought to own but everything is quite casual.  We just don't dress up around here.

I have decided to go take in a movie.  The last time I was at the movies in a theatre was for True Grit.  Must have been 3 years ago or more.  Feeling antsy, need to get out.  I need a few groceries so can stop by WalMart after the movie and be home way before dark.


Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Wednesday, July 24

My youngest daughter's oldest son came with his family on Saturday.  We had a nice visit.  I thought he was going to take my electronic piano home with him but he decided it was too heavy for him to get up the stairs at his house and he chose not to take it home.  No biggy.   Maybe later.  I also asked him to help me take the top off the Maserati.  Unfortunately, it takes two strong people and I am not one so we had to abandon that as well.  Will have to get some help at some point.

We had a nice visit.  We went out to eat Saturday evening and then "Grandma" went to bed and they stayed up a bit.  I gave them my king size and the master bedroom so was less comfortable than usual on the fold out in the front room but did OK. His wife is 8 months pregnant so felt like it was the right thing to do.   Had a bit of a "crick" in my neck come Sunday morning.  I made them a big breakfast and by the time we did that, had showers, etc.  it was time to get on the road.

We went over to see Cowboy and they spent about two hours visiting with him.  He knew my grandson who he has been very close to since he was born but didn't recognize his wife and children.   He seemed to really enjoy that we came to see him.

On Monday I drove to Austin with the other band members to our keyboard players house and practiced for a couple of hours.  Very nice practice.  Got to see her new house and the plans she has for the yard.

On Tuesday, I went to Austin to meet with an opthomologist who does laser cataract surgery and also lasik. I learned that I am eligible for Medicare for the surgery on both eyes.  One of my eyes is basically useless so he suggested we do the one that we can do some good for.  He is telling me that this procedure will leave me not needing glasses for distance but only reading glasses for reading and such.  Sounds wonderful; however, since I only have one good eye it is a risk.  Also, Medicare does not cover this new laser procedure so would cost thousands.  Am thinking about it.  Am going to have to have cataract surgery in any event but could go the traditional route.

Today I went to see Cowboy and a friend and I played for him and the entire memory unit group.  They seemed to really enjoy it.  We did some old 40's and 50's tunes.  I also took Cowboy a new remote control.  Am working on some way to keep it where it can't disappear like the other one.  Maybe some type of pocket off his chair or something.  Will be working on that.

I am rather tired tonight.  Watched some of American's Got Talent but have grown a bit bored with it.  Going to bed with a good book.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Saturday, July 20

I started this blog when I was 66 and I turn 69 today.  Wow.  I received many lovely cards and ecards and it makes me feel good.  Just think of all the people out there who are disconnected.  I feel quite connected and it helps a lot.

My thermostat quit on me this week so had to spend Wednesday at home waiting on the repairman.  Some part in the attic burned out.  Wonder why they put them where it gets to be about 125.  Oh well.

I finally got my "bucket of bolts" repaired and I took it down Wednesday and got it washed and cleaned up.  It looks pretty nice.  Still have a few little interior problems and a dent on a tire well.  No hurry but hope to work on that soon.

I went to see Cowboy yesterday.  He was in a good place.  He called me "Sweetheart" which I haven't heard in a while and seemed alert.  They had catfish and he loves that and then there was german chocolate cake which he ate with relish.  It takes very little anymore to keep him content and comfortable.  It was really hot so we didn't go outside.  I got him to walk around some in the day room.  We watched two episodes of "Walker, Texas Ranger".  Still no TV  remote.  I ordered him a new one and hope it arrives soon but he doesn't seem to care what is on and it could be worse.  You can adjust the channel on the front of the TV but he doesn't seem to know that or do that.

I don't think that I mentioned in the last post that I talked to the Dr. on Tuesday.  I have been concerned about him refusing to take his meds or get his sugar checked.  She says this is not at all uncommon and I shouldn't worry to much but that she will see that every effort is made rather than just shrugging it off.  I guess there is not much else to be done unless it goes on a lot.  The regular day nurse "Norman" doesn't have any trouble with him so there is definitely a personality component to some of it.

Have company coming today so am off to the grocery store.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Tuesday, July 15

Long day today.  I went and got my teeth cleaned this morning and got a good report.  Then I went to Ft Hood to pick a new watch up for Cowboy.  He had started complaining that the other one I got him was too heavy, even though  he had liked it at first.  I found him a sport watch that was very light weight and pretty easy to put on.  It turned out to be a bear to program and hopefully he won't keep messing with it.  After I gave it to him, he kept looking at it and looking at it and seemed like  he wasn't understanding what he was looking at.

I also picked up some toiletries, had some lunch and headed over to see Cowboy.  It was about 2 when I got there.  He was in a good mood and seemed relaxed and comfortable.  He announced he didn't know where his TV remote was and I looked everywhere for it.    Under the bed, under his chair, in the drawers, no remote.  I reported the loss to the staff.

Couldn't change the channel and were stuck watching "Judge Judy".  There was a mother suing a daughter on the show.  Cowboy turns around and asks me if he owes me any money.  I said, of course not.  He said "well, if I do, just tell me and I will got get some".  I asked him how he was going to do that.  He said, "I'll just go to the ATM and get it".  He has no wallet, no plastic, nothing but he was quite sure he could pay me.  Had to have been from watching the show.

At 5 PM I went to the support group meeting.  Supposed to last an hr to an hr and a half but lasted til 6:45.  I am not sure I can get much out of the meetings.  I am not patient enough with some people's attitudes and opinions.  One thing that came up is all the things that get lost.  I mentioned the TV remote.  Our facilitator went and got the lost and found box.  Amazing......there must have been 25 pair of glasses, a dozen watches, several chargers, various other things and one remote.  Unfortunately, it was not the one I was missing.

Cowboy has gone through about a dozen pair of undershorts that have never made it back to his room.  So far we are doing fairly well with shirts and jeans.  I guess this is just "par for the course" with these things.

We talked about our emotions and how to manage them.  Some people really need to talk and others never say a word.  It is an interesting dynamic.  Never done this before, not sure how I feel about it.  For the most part, I don't say much, just listen  (doesn't sound like me, does it?)

The facilitator said she was going to get a Dr. to come and talk to us about the disease itself.  I was wondering as I was listening if these people did any research on their own.  I searched the internet, bought and read two books.  The best one was from the Mayo Clinic and was very detailed in both the clinical aspects of the disease and ways to manage the patient.

Ended up driving home in a heavy downpour with a very dark sky.  There was a terrible backup on the interstate.  Didn't get home til about 9.    I am pooped but too wound up to sleep.  Just had a cupcake.  Going to bed momentarily.

Monday, July 15, 2013

Monday, July 15

I had plans to try my skills on a bicycle this morning but it was pouring down rain.  We need the rain so bad, am not going to say a word.  We have a good chance of getting significant moisture over the next couple of days which is very welcome.  It kind of played havoc with my plans.  I have a friend who is encouraging me to get more active and I know she is right but I am a bit of a "slug".

I was going to try my rusty skills at riding a bicycle this morning and then had plans to take the Maserati down to have it detailed.  Because of the rain, that did not happen.  Am planning on Wednesday unless it is still raining.  No complaints, just have to adjust.

I worked on the EMC project some more today and also did some research for my planned trip to NY.  My daughter is suggesting we might do better cost wise to stay in New Jersey.  My lack of knowledge about the area is making that hard and am still hoping for a good price in Manhattan.  I spent quite a bit of time today researching and seeing what might be available.  It costs a bunch to live in the big city and bunch to visit.

Cowboy and I went to NYC a few years ago.  We parked our car and took public transportation.  He is uncomfortable with subways, that claustraphobia thing so we walked a lot.  I don't think I can do that now.  Don't have the stamina.  Am hoping to come up with a Manhattan hotel and to use public transportation, so won't just wear out right off the bat.

It will be good to get away and there are a number of things in NYC that didn't get to last time so have high hopes for the trip.


Sunday, July 14, 2013

Sunday, July 14

Part of our band played at a day care on Friday.  I was almost late getting there.  Couldn't get off the phone .  I didn't play very well.  There seems to be too much stuff in my brain right now and can't concentrate as well as I like.  but it went OK.  This crowd is not hard to  please.

Went to see Cowboy on Saturday.  It was still fairly early in the day and although hot, not unbearable, so we walked around a bit.  He was ready to go in fairly quickly so we went in and watched TV and I read the paper.  I had lunch with him and then headed back.   He is being a bit of a pain for the staff, frequently refusing to cooperate. His aide can't get him to agree to a shower.  A friend suggested he didn't feel well.  Maybe that is it but I cannot pin point anything.I know he has arthritis and sometimes his hips and/or his knees bother him.

I had met with the staff this past Wednesday and we talked a little bit about that and how to get him to cooperate.  These aids have quite a bit of training but I wonder if Cowboy is not a bit intimidating to some of them.  You can't just accept it when he says "no".  He always says "no".  Need to work on this a bit.

Today I read the paper, did laundry, changed the bed, watered the plants and puttered a bit.  Filled my day.  I also took a long walk right after I got up this morning.  I actually cooked today.  Was tired of frozen meals.  My weigh is holding steady but haven't lost any more in a while.  Going to have to step it up.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Thursday, July 11

I went to see Cowboy Sunday and he was in good spirits so I feel a little better.  According to the regular floor nurse he is taking his medicine and eating, etc.  He also had just had a bath and clean clothes so he was feeling and looking good.

On Monday I met with our ladies group and enjoyed pizza and a movie, "Quartet".  It was wonderful.  We all chuckled and laughed and shook our heads.  Good time.

Tuesday I went to the store and went to the Emergency Management Committee, Resident Education, subcommittee meeting.  I am in the process of helping them build a data base of all the people who have taken CPR and/or First Aid so we can notify those that are over two years to sign up again.  We have working on this program since 2009.  It is amazing how time flies.  4 years.  hundreds of people....

I continue to feel less than wonderful.  Think the mold count, the heat, etc is just a bummer.  I stayed in bed this morning until 9 again.

I went over to see Cowboy again yesterday.  He didn't know how long it had been since I had been there but was happy to see me.  We talked and watched "Walker, Texas Ranger" and then I had a meeting with some of the staff.  I pointed out to them that his teeth are still not getting cleaned regularly and also that I wanted him scheduled for a cleaning.  I just don't thing\k this stuff is on their radar.  An awful lot of these folks have no teeth so I guess it is a challenge to remember, etc.

I went back to see Cowboy and he was taking his disposable shorts off and putting on his regular shorts.  I think they put him in them every time he has an accident and every time they are not looking he takes them off.  Interestingly he has hardly any undershorts in his drawer.  What is happening to them?  Time to buy some more.

Today I worked on the data base some more.  Probably have 20 hours or so in it at this point.  I also went and picked up the Maserati. Everything mechanical has been checked and fixed as required except the sensors for the ABS.  Not essential, not going to worry about it.   It is now parked in the garage !  Next step is a good detailing to clean it up.

I got a second quote today for a pergola for the patio.  Not sure what I might do on that.  It would cool it off considerably but not cheap.

Talked to my upstate New York daughter about my trip to see her and the family.  Am really excited.  It has been 4 years.    We are talking about 4 days in New York City but don't have all our plans nailed down yet.

Tomorrow the band is playing at a church where they have an elder day care.   I also have a date to play at the VA on the 24th and a plan to have a banjo player there sometime this month.  These guys just love having entertainment come in.






Saturday, July 6, 2013

Saturday, July 6

For some reason I cannot fully identify I have been a bit bummed this week.  Between Cowboy not behaving, the car not getting fixed, the list of "to do's" I have managed to accumulate and the terrible heat I am out of sorts.

I took my new vehicle in for the 5000 mile check on the 3rd.  I am putting the miles on it with going to see Cowboy.  That's OK.  I knew I would.

The fourth of July was a day mostly of work as it turned out.  The neighborhood used 4 iof my tables for the set up and I volunteered to chop the onions.  I also bought a watermelon and cut it up and put it on ice.

The tables were mostly handled by some of the fellows in the neighborhood but I still got involved to some extent. I also made the name tags and got them ready to distribute.  I should have put them in the plastic holders before the picnic so wouldn't end up in a rush when the time came.

Came home tired and hot but it was a good picnic.  Sorry Cowboy couldn't come.  He has always rather enjoyed all the goodies.

Friday, I went and got a haircut and then over to see Cowboy.  He didn't want to go out and we just kind of sat around and visited a bit. We had lunch and the catfish was great as always.   According to the head nurse he has been pretty cooperative as it concerns his meds and sugar readings.  I rather suspect he doesn't much like the night nurse or the substitute nurse and that may be part of the problem.  Anyway, he is mostly cooperating so I feel a little better.

I got up this morning feeling like I had been run over by a truck.  Must have overdone it the last couple of days.  Decided not to go to dulcimer practice.  Didn't get out of bed til nearly nine.

A neighbor who is leaving to go to California brought me celery, onions, lemons, an avocado and a turnip yesterday, then this morning another neighbor who is going on a cruise brought me some wonderful tomatoes.    I wonder if I am considered the welfare case of the block.  Nah, not that, just really nice, generous folks.  There is no way I can consume all of this so will try to find a couple of folks to share it with.

The people across the street are in W VA, the couple next to them just left for Michigan.  My next door neighbor went to California and another neighbor next to her went on a cruise.  Then talked to another friend this afternoon and they are leaving for New Mexico.  I WANT TO GO!!  It is so hot here and nobody around.

I plan to go over to see Cowboy tomorrow.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Tuesday, July 2

I got up this morning and took a walk.  Absolutely beautiful outside.  About 70 and dry.  I came back, showered and headed over to see Cowboy.

He was rather cranky today.  I asked him if he wanted to go outside and he said no and then as soon as I sat down and started reading the paper he said "Are you ready to go outside?".  He refused to use his walker so we went out without it.  He did pretty well.  He declared "I don't need it" and what are you going to do?

We "deadheaded" the flowers and and walked around for a while.  There were other folks outside and it was a very pleasant morning.  We sat on a bench and visited with some of the other residents for a while.  The nurse came out to get his sugar reading he refused to do it.  She didn't push the issue.  I went in and talked to her and learned he had refused to take his meds or to have his sugar taken for two days.  Not sure why I wasn't notified, although I don't know what I could have done.

We went in and had lunch and he ate pretty well.  He insists he no longer needs his meds or his walker and to leave him alone.  I hope this is a temporary problem.  It could be serious if he continues to refuse to cooperate.

I came home agitated and frustrated after trying to talk to him without feeling that I had got through to him at all.

I had a call from JC Penney that the draperies were in so drove down to pick them up and then came back by Kohl's.  Had to do something to occupy myself.  I had a $10 card and a 15% off card so  bought a 4th of July themed T-shirt for our neighborhood cookout on the 4th.  Couldn't get interested in doing more so came on home.

Got a call from my friendly neighborhood mechanic today.  They  have completed all the work on the car except for a gasket that they are having trouble finding.  He hasn't given up yet but this could turn out to be a problem.    There is an oil leak that requires the gasket to fix.  Here's hoping.

I am sick of fast food, I am sick of car troubles, I am sick of worrying.  It is time for a holiday.  Thank goodness there is one right around the corner.

Happy Independence Day to everyone.